x3; Thursday, June 29, 2006

i couldn't sleep last night. layed in bed for quite some time before konking out. around 2ish i think. then i woke up 0644 this morning -_-" and now im abit tired but i can't get back to sleep. i really don't know why it's like this. sleep is the first thing i do when there's too much is on my mind. when im upset or angry or happy or excited or anything. i just sleep on everything and wait for the next day. but last night, different story. i just couldn;t sleep. it's not just that. it's that the way i handle anything is different now. the way i handle my feelings. the way i chuck tantrums. the way i overthink. like ......WTF. i never realli used to care. i think that was one of my downfalls. but now that i start to care about things...its another downfall. o.o i wanna be me again :[ or have i changed and this is now me. i thought abit about rollercoasters this morning whilst laying in bed trying to get back to sleep.

rollercoasters............ theres many different types.
ones with alot of ups and downs and loops. the excitement. the rush of adrenaline. the challenge of holding on tight. you make it to the end in one peice. sometimes satisfied. sometimes dissapointed.
there are ones focused on speed rather than obstacles. ones focused on hoops rather than hills or viceversa.
the ones i prefer are the rickety racket ones. the fast and unpredictable ones. ones which stress u to think if your gonna be safe and ok by the end of the ride. but i didnt realize until i hopped on one that there were two type. there are ones that can be unsafe and dangerous and the other, offers a very bumpy ride but your confident that it will take u back safe n sound and of course satisfied. i think i prefer the safe one -_-" ii like to knoww that i would be safe in the end. imean, who doesnt?

rollercoasters. lol

i best get ready. i needa go withdraw and deposit some money in my bank and my mums. my mum went to my aunties to help out. then me and my sister heading to the ct for some more shopping. yesterday was highly satisfying. today i;ll shop to my heart heart heart hearts content

goodmorning. :]

x3; Tuesday, June 27, 2006

lol :] :] :] :]

i think im happy

x3; Monday, June 26, 2006

hmmmm.

?? .. . ..... . .. . ..

u ever in that kinda mood? theres soo much on ur mind yet u just dont know what.

*shrugs. lol

goodnight. xoxo

x3; Saturday, June 24, 2006

sitting here waiting for church. i've been so bored these last few days. -_-" its holidays and i've done nothing. meh. *shrugs. omg shopping *faints . savng up for nex week. and me n wendy spree spree spree. damn u loan ur busy this whole week. we cant even go out. i got work everynight except wednesday. all good i rekon. use up my time wisely and make good dosh for my shopping. havnt seen my baby for three days? efffing crazy. *big sigh. well im gonna make myself a nutella sandwich

x3; Wednesday, June 21, 2006

i finally figured out why my blog went abit unco. cos i used the brackets which caused abit of a complication with the html!!!! HOHOHOHO i can finally get back to my normal blogging days. its wednesday. no school. no anything. now im bored lol i just finished doing all my house chores and feel so damn right proud. no work today. no work tomorrow too :] i miss the girls. went to school yesterday for art and missed them by a minute. as soon as i came they were driving out. so BLAH that.
omg and like last night. felt so contemplative ish. had DnM's with THREE ppls. very interesting actually. we had the best convsersations. i havn't had many of those lately. its been doing this and that and not thinking much at all these days and finally last night sat here n pondered on almost anything. not really but that's what it seemed like. i also learnt something new. we can burn like more than 100 songs onto a 700mb cd . like WTF crazy poo. i always thought it was 20 songs. but more than 100 ?!?!!?!?!? the secret = make it a data cd. like @#$#^%%%(*$#@@ since when?!?!!? thanx to allen for the tip. he he he he he he he.

i need to shop. me and wendy saving up two weeks of earnings for a spree. its a good idea actually. cos wendy gets alot in two weeks. hahah :D well somtimes she does.

i wanna watch stick it! heard it wasnt so great but still.

girl: call me
boy: stalk you

HAHAHA like YES! thats awesome.

and then i wanna watch take the lead. click. over the hedge. just my luck. THE BREAK UP.
no one ever suggest omen to me. like hell no. looks scary o_o

heart: Rihanna - Unfaithful

this is an awefully long blog.

x3; Monday, June 19, 2006

im so bored im blogging the 2nd time today. just came home from work. copped a massive headache. Le n Son came to pick me up today. quite suddenly actually. drove all the way to springfield. my head = bang bang bang. the windows going up n down. n me getting a chill every random moment. but yes of course The Boy was there to keep my warm. Didnt really trust son's car. like wth the wheels ? n then that noise that i cudnt hear. n then it cudnt turn on but of course that was meant to be a joke =_=" Son stopped halfway thru my street and Le walked me home. :] xoxo

p.s i think im having an early night tonight. i feel dead. n i look horrible. out of all days!!

p.s.s i missed supernatural. if anyone just happened to tape it please let me borrow it. im very not happy i missed it. b l a hh doubt anyone would like as if right. rightttttttttttt.

[s2] !

x3;

i finished my exams. yayyyayayayayay. but im still going school tomorrow for my Art. need to finish some photography work for my folio :] stress free baby. i did my TAD viva thing. my teacher said i did very well :] like HIPHIPHORRAY. i did ok for maths. substantial effort, i think. congratulations to loanie. OMG u got a a a a+ like. dude its maths b. so happy for ya babe. well hmm . im so excited. not sure why. maybe cos i get to watch my friends freak out while im at school developing photos. everyone is gettin scik :[ thats one thing im not happy about. i hope for all those who are gettin infected by bad bacterias, that ur white blood cells do its job and kick them bacteria's sorry asses. no idea if that made sense but to me it does. and where are all the smilies?? i cant find any -_-" i guess i have to use this :D he he he he he he . appreciate ur time reading this. please leave a mark on ur way out. we'll talk soon. luv sometimes jessica.

x3; Saturday, June 17, 2006

watched tokyo drift. twas ok. fell asleep towards the end. had a very early start to the day. -_-" home very early today. not bothered to blog. mums picking up wendy from work. i have his scent on me :]

luvjessica

x3; Friday, June 16, 2006

just got home from work. its a cold night tonight. like freezing cold. my fingers are like frostbitten. o_o ew nah. that reminds me of that movie with adam sandlers. whats it called. Mr Deeds. thanks to SANG for the memory boost. did my earth science exam today. was Okkkkkk not that bad. but cant say i did realli well *shrugs. didnt see any of the girls today. like omgoodness. i miss them. i wasl ike in school bymyself. talking to the other chix then vincent came then stina camethen loan came for a tick. and ill be right back.

x3; Thursday, June 15, 2006

Woke up early and went to school for maths B exams. it was ok. i was nervous. like actually nervous. crazy or what. it was a funny day. after exams said goodbye and goodluck to some friends who were staying back for accounting exams. hope you guys did well! :] i'm sure u did. me and loanie walked to coles in corinda and shopped for what our tummies were craving. in the end we enjoyed what we got :] though our selection was quite strange. i do not want to mention it. you'd be like OK NICE JESSnLOANIE.

that feeling was triggered again today. like i've lost a friend :[ i wish i could find the guts to ask him if he hates me or something. maybe not hate. thats too strong. maybe. who knows.

i saw the boy today. this morning. too bad i wasn''t in the mood. going thru what i know abt maths. he probably thought i was bored pooless. well nah. well well well i got earth science tomorrow its 11.05 and have not studied at all. im leaving it till tomorrow when im in school. lets hope thats not a bad idea. lol . its nearly saturday yay. some rest. i think i t hink i think i miss him. :]